Hello? Is anyone out there?
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You ever get that feeling that you are missing out on life?
No, I'm not making a subtle attempt to say that I'm so busy at school that I can't do the things I want to do. I'm actually talking about something that has been plaguing me for sometime now. It's the feeling that I get when I have friends like these that are doing so much with independent media on the Internet, and I seem to copy what they are doing. At least that is what it seems to me. I feel like I am in this creative copycat mode that all I want to do is do the things that my friends are doing but when I try I come off as totally inexperienced, and basically copying what others are doing.
It's tough. I want to be successful in this independent media, but I can't seem to get that far. Sure, I've come close, but never anything substantial. To be quite honest the closest I have come to doing anything remotely successful is my blog here on Vox. Here I know there are people who read what I do and care about what I say, but anywhere else, I feel like a complete failure.
Am I being too vain or self-centered to say I want to be successful? It's hard to admit that sometimes I wish I had a bigger audience. But in a lot of ways compared to others I don't. I appreciate and thank everyone who actually cares what I do, but there are times where there is this lull that I feel like I'm all over the place trying to create something that people enjoy and never accomplishing that.
I guess the only real benefit and is probably the only thing I cherish the most out of producing content on the web is the people I never would've met before that I can honestly say are my good friends. It feels good that I can talk to them and chat with them and I love that fact.
I don't know, I just feel like I missed the train and I'm failing trying to keep up.
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About The Author
Steve Saylor
Steve Saylor is currently the Web Content Editor at Blackburn Radio in Wingham Ontario for CKNX AM920, 101.7 The ONE and 94.5 The BULL. Steve is a New Media Specialist and has worked in this field since Spring of 2005. He is a self-published author, a techie and a geek. To read more about Steve, click HERE
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